xtakemeslowx (10:30:06 PM): it's so hard. it's really hard. i want to be there. i want to be at stanford. i want to be in chicago. i want to be with donny. i want to be with josh. i want to stay with all of you. xtakemeslowx (10:30:24 PM): i am so fucking torn. cooldoodchillen8 (10:31:53 PM): ... im sorry, i want u to be happy, but im greedy and i also dont want u to leave, but if it makes u happy then u should, ya know? just do what feels best xtakemeslowx (10:32:53 PM): nothing feels right cooldoodchillen8 (10:33:57 PM): like theres no way u can be happy? xtakemeslowx (10:34:04 PM): yes, exactly xtakemeslowx (10:34:16 PM): i'm waiting for it to hit me like a ton of bricks, what i should do. xtakemeslowx (10:34:29 PM): i realized today that i care too much about what other people want from me xtakemeslowx (10:34:43 PM): but then i stepped back and tried to figure out what i want xtakemeslowx (10:35:00 PM): and i realized that, to me, my happiness takes the backseat. xtakemeslowx (10:35:07 PM): my happiness doesn't matter to me. cooldoodchillen8 (10:35:21 PM): well then what does matter to u? xtakemeslowx (10:35:42 PM): everyone else. xtakemeslowx (10:35:48 PM): i've never done something for myself xtakemeslowx (10:35:56 PM): i bet if i got into stanford, i wouldn't have gone. cooldoodchillen8 (10:36:35 PM): does that make u sad though? do u not like being sad? xtakemeslowx (10:37:11 PM): no, because i can be happy do whatever as long as other people are happy with me cooldoodchillen8 (10:37:11 PM): i mean do you like cooldoodchillen8 (10:37:29 PM): well then, ya idk cooldoodchillen8 (10:37:36 PM): u cant make everyone happy cooldoodchillen8 (10:37:46 PM): but that doesnt men u should make no one happy xtakemeslowx (10:38:15 PM): i can't do this. xtakemeslowx (10:38:18 PM): i can't do anything. cooldoodchillen8 (10:38:58 PM): like if u feel like u belong with josh and new orleans, then as much as it will sadden me, u should go, but if u wanna stay with donny, as much of a crazy situation that is, then do it, just do whatever u want is all i can say | 
